Life Prescriptions/ Mind / Clarity

With the Holidays being behind us it's time to re-adjust and move into 2020.

This for me has been like labor when a woman is having a baby.

I really got into a slump right before the holidays. Although I had great fun with family and friends. I hid behind the holidays, keeping busy with getting my house ready, cleaning, decorating, shopping for delicious foods, and watching heart warming goofy movies. I practically over dosed on movies , binged watched my favorite tv series and practically indulged and tuned out.

I didn't have the holiday blues, but before the holiday season began, I was already in a slump. There were a series of events that shut me down. My interactions with my grown children had become toxic, tensions at work with my boss weighed heavy on me. It affected my creativity, and my normal passion for life.

The holidays were a convenient way for me to hide. Actually it was a wonderful distraction, but I had to slowly face my dilemma. My creativity, courage to step out of the box, and in general optimism had gone to an all time low. My energy was low my perspective dull, I felt physically sluggish. How did I get here? But more to the point how do I get out?

Basically I'm a person who does not like confrontation. I'm diplomatic when it comes to dealing with situations and people. But this has been a learning process for me, and as painful as these experiences have been it has taught me how to become a better communicator.

Lesson 1) Personal boundaries are very important. Boundaries are attached to our self respect and it's what keeps us sane, healthy and balanced.

Lesson2) Avoiding conflict is not reasonable, people have disagreements all the time. I allowed my issues to settle into my mind, affect my emotions, and then explode.

Really avoiding and walking around situations does not improve them.

Lesson 3) Be direct with people about intentions, and needs, people can't mind read.

Lesson 4) There will be people who will not respect or care about how you feel, or what you want, and being frank with them is the only path to go. Let them go.

Lesson 5) Powerful intimacy can be created between people, especially with love ones when there is honesty.

Lesson 6) I have grown to like and be comfortable with myself, good, bad and indifferent. I've lived in this body, mind, heart and spirit for a long time. I love my honesty to call it out to play it straight. I don't believe the hype about myself, if it's bs, it's bs. Fooling myself at this season in my life would be tragic. But I also don't allow others to drag me through some God awful guilt trip and playing it small in order to appease their inflated egos. Living somewhere in between keeps my homeostasis.

The greatest lesson that I've already learned for this new year, 2020, new decade, new season is clarity! The power to be transparent I believe is the gateway to living an amazing life. It's courageous and freeing! Being honest with yourself and others creates 2020 vision!