Life Prescriptions/ Living in the Middle

Just recently I got sick while assisting our family with getting the grand children well. Yep I was slammed with what ever virus my grands caught during their vigorous activities. Their mother gave them teas and massages with warm oils. We also cuddle with them and gave them a lot of love and attention.

Like children normally do, they spring back into action in no time. But one or all of the adults become ill, and this time I was the designated person.

I woke up the next morning, it felt like I had been hit by a Mack truck going 200 miles per hour, it literally hurt to blink. So of course I took every medicine known to man in those miserable 48 hours.

During that time I took medicines, drank liquids, and hobbled to the bathroom. I watched movies and had time to think. During my 48 hours I reflected over my life. How dangerous when my hormones and emotions were all over the place and not to mention my immune system was in a pretty shabby condition.

It was pretty hairy I saw myself 3D in some of my experiences in my life journey. Some memories made me smile, others I coughed and cheered, then the ones that I am not so proud of made me cringe and I pulled the covers over my head. But still I forged ahead with fading ferocity and courageous intentions.

I didn't do the what if thing but some of the life decisions I'd made good or bad were life changing. When I was very young, I was a shy and quiet soul, kind of drifting along. Today I see myself as a strong battled tested woman.

Somewhere in between I like to live in the middle of the shy trusting soul, and that dragon slayer of a person that I have become. I think all of those qualities plus failures, triumphs, good decisions, bad decisions; learning how to trust myself, learning how to let go, learning how to be still, learning how to forgive, learning how to admit when I am wrong, learning how to set boundaries, and last but not least understanding and embracing this thing referred to as life. It's not a dress rehearsal. What I've learned to do is to live somewhere in the middle. There is no perfect life, and the dream life make it possible if you can, but don't mitigate the wonder of it all! Allow your life to be one beautiful tapestry a map if you will of your powerful one of a kind story. But when it's all said and done shout to the mountain tops that I lived somewhere in the middle.